MIA

I don't know whether I should be mia or just missing out on all the action. I am trying so hard to make everything work at the moment but it is really stressing me.
Having organised the finance for my son to buy his home is really fantastic, however he is also relying on me to help him with everything else that is required and unfortunately that means some money. Of course he hopes to repay it back but it is just at such a bad time with me not having too much income while I get this business up and running.
The constant money thoughts are just making me feel sick in the stomach at the moment.
This is really the first time I have actually thought maybe I have done the wrong thing. I guess i could just admit defeat and go back to my old job.
This makes me feel like I have let my family down. I have been supporting everyone for so long it would be nice to have a bit of support back.

I haven't given up just yet but I am having some negative thoughts about where we are headed anad I don't like it.

Would you believe this. I was reading about a BMW Z4 the other day and thinking about driving around in one. Well I go to this networking group on Monday called Abundant Babes. Really inspiring n& motivating group of women. On the way home I followed a Z4 right up to my street.. I had never really taken any notice of them before and then here it was right in front of me. Must have been an omen I think!
Then yesterday exactly the same thing happened. Another one driving in front of me right up past my street. In actual fact I desparately need a new car but that is a long long way down the list. Crazy!