Almost through the 2nd week for 2008 and I have finally got a chance to catch up. I was supposed to be competing tonight (athletics) but I was the one who dipped out on the car, so here I am sitting at the computer. Not to worry gives me 5 minutes to myself for a change and I was feeling really tired this afternoon. I'll just jump on the treadmill shortly and that always makes me feel better..strange!!

I am really glad to be over Christmas/New Year and all the trimmings that go with it. I was away for a week and didn't actually do any training at all and not to mention the food/drink bit. After arriving back from Sydney Friday night- after a bit of drama with the flight and a diversion to Brisbane because of the weather- I trained on Sunday morning and just felt so lethargic. Thankfully I had someone to train with or I'm sure I would have pulled out of the session. I got through it but it was soo hard. At least it gave me a wake up call that unless I get myself into gear I am not going to do too well at the end of March.

My next comp is Jan 19, so will test out my 800m at that one. I really need to get to that 3 minute mark or I am not going to be competitive. Thats my goal for the 800 this year.

Work has been busy. After the few problems at the end of last year I am still feeling good about where I am heading. I have decided to stay in my current situation, not ideal, but I feel that I can make it work. Having been trying to please too many people last year I now know that I wasted my energy which could have and should have been directed into my own business. Can't believe it is almost 12 months since I left a paying job, but even though it has been a struggle I do not regret my decision and will not give up on my dream.

I think I had better think about that run on the treadmill now or it is not going to happen!

Finishing up for 2007

Ryan & Corrin my two children Ryan is 22 and Corrin is 17.

Christmas Day -Corrin with Bailey- Ryan's dog.


Have spent the last 2 days finishing off some files before I leave on Monday. Have quite enjoyed working at my "home office" and achieved quite a bit. I did however have a break today for my training session at 10.30 which I don't normally do.

We have been concentrating on upper body and totally pushed my arms today and I certainly knew all about it by the end of my session. Mind you I also spent nearly an hour yesterday doing Jav training so that didn't help. Sometimes I am surprised at how quickly my arms recover. I always feel that I should be able to do better at Javelin so I will just keep persisting with it. I really do need a proper throws coach but can't have everything at the moment.

I have just arranged with a couple of my running friends to meet for a track training session on Sunday morning as I won't have the opportunity for one whilst I am away. I will be competing in State Pentathlon on the 26th Jan so have to take every opportunity.

Family time

Christmas was a very quiet day this year but we had a traditional Chrissy lunch with all the trimmings. Today we had a seafood BBQ which was most enjoyable with our family again.

Today was the only day I didn't do any training at all and even though I didn't overeat all that much I still feel as though I don't need anything to eat for a week!


Back into training tomorrow well at least until Monday when I will be heading to Sydney for 5 days. Will be spending New Years Eve on Sydney Harbour with friends and I think the plan is to sleep over on their boat so I am really looking forward to that. Five days is actually a long time to be away as I have set myself some big challenges this year and I really want to get started. More about that soon!
Donna

Another Friday update

I have actually had a very productive week just past. Working from home most of the week but it was all good and it was all productive work which is even better.
Have not been near the shops too much this week except for a short period with my daughter to pick up a couple of small presents for her.

She received final school results also with an OP of 11 . She has applied for Griffith Uni to do Primary teaching so hopefully she will get in. Uni placings are out in January.
Have been training and eating well this week which always helps. Have been thinking about actually competing in a body comp next year. Just a thought at this stage. My athletics season finishes end of March and there is a comp here on the Gold Coast in October so may be able to fit in. My PT & his partner are competing in a comp in May but that is not enough time for me to prepare.

I was looking forward to my girlfriend & her husband coming up from Sydney for the weekend last week but I couldn't believe it they missed the plane. She was getting over the death of her Mother this year and hadn't been coping very well and has put a lot of weight on etc . We finally managed to organise a weekend and actually get her motivated to get away and they missed the plane. I was so looking forward to her visit as she is my one dear friend that I have had since high school. (over 30 years ago!!) Anyway she rang today and wants me to go down to Sydeny for New Year. I wasn't planning on going because of the cost but I think I will try and get down there.

I actually felt like having acouple of wines tonight and even went out and bought a few bottles for Xmas. Decided to go for a run instead and didn't end up having anything to drink. Felt pretty good too.

Must go as I have been on this computer all week and was planning to read tonight.

Friday update

Totally non eventful week has just passed me by. Even my training has been nothing to write home about. I have been going through the motions but thats about it. At least I am still getting up and doing something but it just doesn't seem right.
Never mind, let's see what will be next week.

MIA

I don't know whether I should be mia or just missing out on all the action. I am trying so hard to make everything work at the moment but it is really stressing me.
Having organised the finance for my son to buy his home is really fantastic, however he is also relying on me to help him with everything else that is required and unfortunately that means some money. Of course he hopes to repay it back but it is just at such a bad time with me not having too much income while I get this business up and running.
The constant money thoughts are just making me feel sick in the stomach at the moment.
This is really the first time I have actually thought maybe I have done the wrong thing. I guess i could just admit defeat and go back to my old job.
This makes me feel like I have let my family down. I have been supporting everyone for so long it would be nice to have a bit of support back.

I haven't given up just yet but I am having some negative thoughts about where we are headed anad I don't like it.

Would you believe this. I was reading about a BMW Z4 the other day and thinking about driving around in one. Well I go to this networking group on Monday called Abundant Babes. Really inspiring n& motivating group of women. On the way home I followed a Z4 right up to my street.. I had never really taken any notice of them before and then here it was right in front of me. Must have been an omen I think!
Then yesterday exactly the same thing happened. Another one driving in front of me right up past my street. In actual fact I desparately need a new car but that is a long long way down the list. Crazy!

Moving on

I am really startingto think that maybe it is me that has a problem. But I know this isn't true. I am sick & tired of being used. I have decided I am going to look out for myself from now on. That means I don't have to make any excuses for anyone else. I can reach for as high as I want and that is what I intend to do.
I love just reading eveyones blog- each has there own little problems but there is just so much support out there.
I can see how easy it is to turn back to food, and I do this on and off but luckily I have never lost sight of where and what I want. Unfortunately I do not have too much of a support network from my family so its all up to me and of course my fantastic trainer.
I have just tonight decided I do not particularly like drinking anymore.Had a couple of glasses tonight and didn't do anything for me at all.
I was planning on not going to training tomorrow morning but I havechanged my mind and will go. I have nothing much else happening at the moment so will do the one thing I enjoy.