Friday update

Totally non eventful week has just passed me by. Even my training has been nothing to write home about. I have been going through the motions but thats about it. At least I am still getting up and doing something but it just doesn't seem right.
Never mind, let's see what will be next week.

MIA

I don't know whether I should be mia or just missing out on all the action. I am trying so hard to make everything work at the moment but it is really stressing me.
Having organised the finance for my son to buy his home is really fantastic, however he is also relying on me to help him with everything else that is required and unfortunately that means some money. Of course he hopes to repay it back but it is just at such a bad time with me not having too much income while I get this business up and running.
The constant money thoughts are just making me feel sick in the stomach at the moment.
This is really the first time I have actually thought maybe I have done the wrong thing. I guess i could just admit defeat and go back to my old job.
This makes me feel like I have let my family down. I have been supporting everyone for so long it would be nice to have a bit of support back.

I haven't given up just yet but I am having some negative thoughts about where we are headed anad I don't like it.

Would you believe this. I was reading about a BMW Z4 the other day and thinking about driving around in one. Well I go to this networking group on Monday called Abundant Babes. Really inspiring n& motivating group of women. On the way home I followed a Z4 right up to my street.. I had never really taken any notice of them before and then here it was right in front of me. Must have been an omen I think!
Then yesterday exactly the same thing happened. Another one driving in front of me right up past my street. In actual fact I desparately need a new car but that is a long long way down the list. Crazy!

Moving on

I am really startingto think that maybe it is me that has a problem. But I know this isn't true. I am sick & tired of being used. I have decided I am going to look out for myself from now on. That means I don't have to make any excuses for anyone else. I can reach for as high as I want and that is what I intend to do.
I love just reading eveyones blog- each has there own little problems but there is just so much support out there.
I can see how easy it is to turn back to food, and I do this on and off but luckily I have never lost sight of where and what I want. Unfortunately I do not have too much of a support network from my family so its all up to me and of course my fantastic trainer.
I have just tonight decided I do not particularly like drinking anymore.Had a couple of glasses tonight and didn't do anything for me at all.
I was planning on not going to training tomorrow morning but I havechanged my mind and will go. I have nothing much else happening at the moment so will do the one thing I enjoy.

Work problems

More work problems. I really can't understand people who say one thing and do another. I am totally over it. The lady who I have been trying to work with (in her business) is just so focussed on herself and how much money she is making I am sure she has forgotten the reason why she asked me to join her in the first place. Initially she had so much work and was making enough money and didn't need to make any more, so if I joined her I could take some of her referrals etc. Well I have not had one referral and all she keeps doing is complaining about howmuch work she has, how many hours she has to do (mind you she has kept everyone of the referrals to herself). I have decided today that I am going to go out on my own. I don't need this crap anymore. I will struggle on by myself.
Enough of that. Exercise has been going OK as has the diet. Well sort of on and off. Haven't put any weight back on but I really want to get back into it and see what I can really do. Have a comp on in Brisbane tomorrow so looking forward to that.
I can't believe I have just spent an hour catching up on blogs etc. I was going to do some research for work but I guess one night off that won't hurt.

Weekends!

Just love Saturdays when I don't have to rush anywhere. Although I still wake up at the usual time I really just like to catch up on everything I have put off during the week.
Have been busy organising finance for my son Ryan this week. He has a contract on a property but there are always so many hurdles with buying a house. I think he now realises what I have been trying to tell him about finance for years. He is 22 but I'm sure he thinks I know nothing until he needs help with something. Anyway fingers crossed that everything goes to plan.

My daughter Corrin has 2 more Year 12 exams this week and school is all over for her. Then we have the week at Schoolies to worry about. I really believe it is such a waste of money (her money), but they all have to do it. Surfers is just one place to stay right away from once they start.

Work has been taken over recently but I have to persist or I will be back working for someone else. I try to keep up my training as much as possible because that is my bit of a lifeline, always has been and always will be.

First comp today

My first comp day for the season today at Griffith track.It was soo hot but I always seem to perform better in the heat. Although at the end of the sessions I was pretty well drained of energy. Did jav, discus, shot, long jump & 400M. Throws were pretty average as expected due to non training and a PB in the 400. I am actually getting to like the 400. Overall I was more than happy with my times. Just gives me abit more motivation to do better.
The last couple of nights I haven't had to do anything associated with work so it was good to use the computer for myself and catch up with everyones blog.

My son has been looking to buy a home and has just rung to say he found something today.I am in the process of organising finance for him but everything seems to sell so quickly at the moment I don't know waht his chances are of securing it.

We have no training on tomorrow morning so planning to go down to North Burleigh surf club for brekky & a walk along the beach after.

1 Goal achieved

Just a quick one today as I have so much to catch up on at home. Away at a conference for 3 days last week didn't help. Too much eating & drinking & sitting around. I was really glad to get back home.
My News: I won the monthly WH & F comp for my 12 week challenge. It ended up being quite a shock, I entered because I find that to achieve I need that specific goal. I had a start/finish date & that was what I worked around. However towards the end it didn't matter that I had a finish date because I had the results I wanted and I just felt that I could have continued on.
The downside was that I did finish on the date and I have been having a bit of a holiday since.

I do have some goals with my athletics so I think I really need to concentrate on them and get back into training. I have also let work take over a bit too much so need to look at that also.